Find a dom who can give you tasks that doesn't involve pain.
Or just make a room and let everyone join and you can fulfill your humiliation and degradation kink with a lot of members, but I also think it's such bad advice. Keep your dignity above; if your mind says, "Don't do it," then don't...
And what do you do when you start to feel angry during an argument?
I think I know the answer, which is a gun which you were asking about earlier. Killer QTie
Maybe you're going too fast. Keep it at your pace. Start slowly, then as time goes on, the more trust you gain for your dom and the better the bond you guys have, it will eventually lead to more stuff you want to do for him without caring about your dignity.
Or just drop the plan and keep the...
I mean, if you're not getting any pleasure from it, then why would you do it? Both Dom and Sub should know each other's kinks and limits, and you can try new things once in a while. If you like it, tell him, and if you don't, tell him that too, or You can just be a mindless cunt walking around...